zedvmmag9o's Blog

my husband has moved me 200 miles away from him to live with my parents again im 19 and i have had lots of bad stuff happen to me in this town and i see the people almost every day. my family is falling apart there loosing there house im gonna have to move and i dont know where i have to deal with medical problems and go in for a in office surgery in july im gonna loose my animals and there the only thing i have. i cant find a job im about to loose everything and on top of it all my family is falling apart and there is nothing i can do i sit at home every night till 2am and cry over it all i realize that life has its dark spots but there is no light for miles and im lost cause i have no one there. out of 19 years of my life maby 9 of them have been good but it has never been this bad. i love my husband with all of my heart and i dont want to loose him but im afraid i already have and on top of it im loosing my family and i dont know what to do any more. i just want to be happy and be able to get a job and do something to make it all better but no one will hire me and i dont blame them i have no education no ged no work excperince i dont even have a full fledged licence and the only reason why i even have a permite is cause my parents helped when i got down here to this sh*t hole they call a town and its awful cause not even my husband would get me one. my parents are the only thing that i have and i cant do anything to help them with there situation and it makes me feel even worse. what makes it the worst of all is all of this is happening cause my husband says hes trying to save our marriage and i dont undestand how. how is this suppose to save it al its doing is tearing me to pieces and making me wish life was over and making me realize that i have nothing but tears and pain and i dont know what to do anymore